The Illusion of Tomorrow

I was standing in the ocean.  The waves sang  to me as the water met the world then rushed back out to a sea of dreams.  The summer air was heavy and wrapped its arms around me.  Safe, I felt safe.  I looked up and watched as the setting sun painted the sky with bursting pinks and purples.  A million blessings seemed to fill the final rays and penetrated my cheeks.  The world felt quiet as if I were the only soul.  There was nothing left but peace.

Yet, the hands of time grow restless and refuse to remain still.  I heard the clock strike as the setting sun transformed into a painful blinding light. The clock began to spin rapidly but only a second was lost.  A dark laughter thundered as the universe tightly gripped my ankles and dragged me into the sea.  Monsters of the deep held my arms open so I couldn’t fight.  I sank furiously until I slammed into the bottom.  With a gasp my lungs began fill and freeze.  Confusion swirled my mind as hungry grins and glowing eyes hunted nearby.   Just before life as I knew it dissolved I remembered the setting sun. Rescue would come but not today.  I swam into the heavy darkness and cried knowing that nothing would ever be the same.

Tomorrow does not exist.  It is an illusion that we hope will become a reality.  All of us have said, “Tomorrow I will…” never considering that tomorrow may not arrive.  It is a terrifying thought to consider the idea that you may go to bed and find eternal slumber but that is the reality.  This does not mean that we should fear death it simply means we should live, truly live, every single second.

Time is a clever thief  it will spin you in circles till you feel wasted.  We stumble as seconds turn to minutes and minutes bleed into years. Our dreams are forgotten.  We suffer in unhealthy work environments and are tortured as words  are spewed by the lips of the most toxic people.  Meanwhile time bleeds on and we are so distracted we don’t even notice our lives are  hemorrhaging by until suddenly tragedy forces us to wake.

I need to stop the bleeding in my life.  Recently I have heard four stories of incredibly unexpected loss.  Three of them were my age.  These stories shook me awake and made me realize that it is time to push out all of the negativity and begin hugging tightly the souls and joys in my life that fill my world with light.

This is truly a fragile world but we should run through it laughing hysterically.  Do not fear the break.  There is no time to worry,  just run, run toward what makes you happy.

Play, run through fields.  Love, deeply.  Laugh, with everyone, even strangers.

Live, NOW, you don’t have a moment to waste.